Missing him!

This week has been up and down with emotions: for me at least. I guess the mom in me has gotten the best of me. Isn't that what women do anyway? Worry? Well this whole adoption process will be full of ups and downs. It seems like one minute we will be so excited and the next not so much because of something that is out of our control. We will always be ecstatic that we are adopting V, it's just the technically stuff that gets in the way. We have begun our home study and will have our home visit done next week. This is where the agent will inspect every inch of our home. It is also about digging in your WHOLE entire life; past, present and future. We even have to get blood drawn! haha. FUN! Once our home study is approved we will file Immigration paper work with the US. Then we file paperwork with the government of Ukraine. After all that is complete we will get our invitation to travel to the Ukraine. The social worker and government will interview Jerry and I for adoption approval. It seems like our SDA appointment is so far away, but I'm determined to see V sooner than later so I'm doing all possible to get fundraising and paperwork underway. Not to mention all of the above is what costs thousands of dollars. We are continuing to take this leap of faith and trust that the Lord will provide. We have had many instances this week where doors have opened and we are continuing to follow God's lead. We have had some negativity towards our family about this whole adoption. We will just continue to put on our armor of God. I like this verse. "No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord." Isaiah 54:17. I also understand if it IS GOD's will, it WILL happen. When you go into adoption you have to go into it with that in mind, and be pro-active at the same time. No one has $20,000 sitting around to commit to. We are also doing God's work, which in the bible it states to take care of Orphans and Widows. What we are doing is certainly not negative, it is a blessing. To take in a child that has no future or family is God's greatest blessing to our family to say the least. We have talked to V two times this week. Tuesday on "FaceTime" and today I spoke with him on VK; which is the Facebook in Europe. Of course all of our talking was in Ukrainian and I'm thankful for my itranslate app on my phone. All I have to do is copy and paste. He told me twice in our conversation that he wants Jerry and I to come get him and take him home "forever." I told him that I'm so happy that he chose to come live with us forever and he said, “me too" "only a little bit longer to be sad." Wow. This is where my motherly instincts kick in and I want to get on the next flight to Ukraine. I want to save him and bring him here where I know he is safe and happy. No government laws, no rules and no court dates. I could only wish. We are so happy for the support that we have been given. I have connected with other 'host' moms that are now in the process of adoption. They have been my glue this week. They are the only ones that truly understand all of this! We can share all of our struggles and such. We might be crazy, but this is what GOD has called us to do. We aren't doing it for us; we are doing it for Vitalik who needs the life he deserves. He hasn't had half the life I have and I plan on spending the rest of my (our) life making it up to him. A mom and dad, is just that. Someone that will NEVER not be there for you, unlike his past. Anyways, another good note! My sweet neighbor gave us an Ipod touch 4th generation today! I am syncing things to it right now and I can't wait to send it to him next week. Our other neighbors, John and Josee Waller, received their court date in Ukraine today and will be traveling to the Ukraine next week! So excited for them!! I can't wait to be where they are in this process. They will be taking V's ipod to Ukraine and mailing it to an "outside" chaperone. Who will then hand deliver it to V. The thing is in Ukraine, if I was to mail it to him 1) Customs would take it or 2) his school would take it. They examine every package that comes in. It would most likely never make it to him. We will be sneaking this in the "back door" as you could say. haha. Thank goodness for hook ups. This will make our communication with him 100,000 times better. He will have this to FaceTime and to text us every day, anytime of the day he wants! No more waiting a couple of days to pass by! yay! I just hope it makes it! :/ I've done enough ranting on. I just wanted to update everyone. Thanks for all your support. We appreciate it a million x's. Love to you all!! Kendall and Jerry